Today began as it has every day since the night my sweet little lady was taken away.feeling exsausted,brokenhearted,empty,lonly,extremly confused and very angry inside.but feeling physically drained,mentally as well.this is so hard to digest,to understand.i know god does not make all thing's for our understanding and that there is a reason for that that can't be understood.but pillar,my only little granddaughter you were taken away.i am so confused.but i know everything happens for a reason.there will be some good from this one day.to understand why? one day...will that ever come.i watch my son as he hurt's from the pain of losing his little baby girl.his precious luvita.oh how my heart aches for him,for his loss.for maria my sweet daughter in-law.how does one give the proper support when you to are griving so deeply.he's so strong and i am so very proud of my son.the way he has handled his grief,both of them to be so young themselves and to have lost their youngest pride and joy.thank you lord Jesus for your strength you supply daily.our little angel is dancing with you in heaven. I wake up every day not wanting to get out of bed.just wanting to sulk and think of pillar.but this can't be done.nor is this healthy for me or my son's.so i get up and go about my day and i try to think of you with a smile and at time's i can.but only for a moment.your still so fresh in my mind,my heart,my spirit.grandma loves you so very much.and i will miss you every second of every day,every month,every year.i will remember you always and spend time talking with you and remembering our times together.End for today.